This next entry could cause more than a just a few eye rolls. This next entry, I have tried so hard not to write at the risk of sounding too cliche. As here I go again with my poetic ramblings about my love life. As here I go again, falling so hard so soon. As … Continue reading Do you believe in fate?
"But I must admit I miss you quite terribly. The world is too quiet without you nearby" - Lemony Snicket The death of a loved one is a curious thing. What's more curious though, are the things I found myself clutching onto. I don't know about the rest of you who have experienced a loss, … Continue reading The Bus Pass
We met when I was a teenager, it was a cold night in January and I had recently gone through a break up as well as calling it quits with "the man from seven years ago". My self esteem was pretty low and he took an interest. I remember him looking at me from across … Continue reading That wasn’t love, that was just hope.
I'd never been to a funeral before. I remember going to my great grandad's wake when I was young but I'd never been to an actual service before, let alone plan one. I woke up the day of my mam's funeral and there was a buzz around the house. We were all getting ready for … Continue reading The funeral
There is such a stigma around anti depressants. But right now I am not afraid of saying that sometimes I need to take a tablet to help me sleep at night. I think back to before she died and I remember what it felt like to be happy without a single trace of sadness. Without … Continue reading The anxiety that cripples me
Today is the 29th of August. Today marks exactly one year since her funeral. It's early hours and it's the first time in a year I've had the courage to read the eulogy I wrote for her, the eulogy I read at her funeral, the eulogy I'm going to share with you. I think the … Continue reading The Eulogy
Have you ever seen a dead body? I have. I remember it was a Monday, the last time I saw her, the last time I saw my mother. And she wasn't even breathing. I knew I wanted to go. It was probably one of the first things I was really sure about. That I wanted … Continue reading The Body